i'm not short! you're just tall!!!

Back in SG!

2009-12-20T10:17:00.002+08:00

Singapore - end 2009

mahjong-poker-movies-drinks-velvet-zouk-winebar-clayfish hor fun-koi cafe-carrot cake- buttered-ion-the regent-wedding-brothers-dancing to 'nobody'-the sea-vivo-313-orchard central-family-friends-birthday-drinks-mahjong and poker again-night safari-shopping-specs-cakes-steamboat-xiao long baos-steamboat again-drinks@4 Seasons- marmalade pantry-long runs-swims-tanning-kaya toast-half boiled eggs-zouk and winebar again-poker night too-bak kut teh-keong saik eatery-flight booked and issued-and rebooked-timber-the coffee club-wala wala-being silly at Daiso-monkey sightings-mee fen for breakfast!-buttered again-boardgames-bmt mates-SI mates-unit mates-unit mates-poly friends-work colleagues-secondary school friends-pri school friends-realisation of time passing and age increasing-wala wala again!-balaclavaed-great music-ray bans-suited-

and it has been a whirlwind of activities, of catching up and also, learning to live in the moment.

2009-10-07T01:15:00.001+08:00

something's so very wrong and i cant seem to put my finger to it.
is it my health, my studies, my regrets or my heart?
i'm lost and i need guidance.
somebody ?

2009-09-04T18:06:00.002+08:00

i am sad....
this tugging at the hearstrings,
so wrenching and deep
of a sorrow and pain hidden
surfacing briefly in the painful gaze
that one has to experience to notice

what should i do?
i am lost
so very very lost

last week in SG

2009-07-02T17:14:00.000+08:00

The day of departure draws close and my steps start to slow.
Lingering on the sidewalk, taking in the sights and smells,
Trying hard to etch into memory, every single detail there is.
The bus ride home, the “teh-teh” of the ez-link card tapped.
The little details that I do not usually notice, that crack on the pavement;
The positioning of the furniture, things that I take for granted.
All of this will not be available soon and I can only brace myself.
Cherishing every moment left spent with family and friends.
All alone in a week’s time, this will be my 2 years battle for success.
And I know, I can only succeed in my Endeavour.

2009-06-14T18:37:00.001+08:00

its finally my time to ord!
mixed feelings as i've said before..
haha will elaborate more in my next post.

2009-04-27T18:10:00.002+08:00

45 absolute days more, 21 working days
at final last the journey of 2 years seems to be ending.
ironic as it may be, i would actually miss some of the things about army.
after all, it has been a good 2 years of my life and there is a rythm and schedule of sorts that i am used to already.

if i could just have one wish,
just one wish....

90 days to ord

2009-03-14T19:58:00.002+08:00

had an interesting week...
thurs, went with the army guys to do some shopping for the india ex.
did quite a bit of travelling this time
met at ten mile junction, then to senoko link near the causeway/incinerator,nxt to depot road, then to the airport.
haha...

fri signalled the dawning of the weekend.
headed for mellben crabs with the CS folks.
wow had quite a spread i must say.
-Rojak Chicken, Spinach, Claypot Tofu, Teochew style steamed fish, another veg dish, crab bee hoon soup, shimmering crab, cereal prawns (8 course meal)
- 2.5kg of mangosteen, 4 boxes of durians, 1 jackfruit, 1 huge platter of fruits

all this, devoured by 8 of us. haha went to arts house timbre for drinks after that...
decided against gg to the substation outlet as it wld probably be too crowded.
was nice catching up guys
the nxt time wld be at enya's new place for bbq!
haha

March 1st

2009-03-01T19:07:00.002+08:00

been 2 mths since i last posted
well well, things have definately took a change - for better or worse i do not know.
i guess in time only would i be able to tell.

closing the FY right now and its a hell of a time for me
couple that with bits, pieces and whatnots
and you may sometime get a very pissed off Junyan, esp if you rub him the wrong way at the wrong time.
haha, but hey I generally wont bite. unless your're an idiot.

met up with jy and ch for some mellben crabs which was a little lackluste but still good nonetheless.
oh i lost my way again even with the aid of the GPS.
from toapayoh mrt, how long wld it take to go to lorong 8?
genius me, i took half an hour.
i went on the CTE towards PIE, managed to go onto PIE, exited at paya lebar mrt, u-turned back to the CTE and to toapayoh again.
bugger, i really shud go recee the route beforehand.
haha

ORDs coming! after my horrendous fy, xda i see freedom ahead of me.

to stay in SG or not to?
thats what i wonder about too...

a fren of mine posed me this question: where have you disappeared to?
i pondered and replied: i've never left, its you who has left.

-the end.

2009-01-09T19:07:00.000+08:00

It's one thing to start a friendship, it's quite another to maintain it, to keep it.

It takes effort. And right now, i'm just sick of it.

Christmas & NY 2008

2008-12-30T13:03:00.000+08:00

Wow, it’s been a pretty long time since I last posted – 2 mths actually…

Haven’t had the best of times lately…
This Christmas, I lost a few things close to my heart.
Ain’t really in a festive mood this year…

2008 hasn’t been a good year for me.
Had a number of unpleasant happenings and awakenings…
I hope for a great year ahead and that 2009 marks the start of a new beginning.

Aptly said; “A journey of a thousand miles must begin with single step”
And so on my new journey I will embark.

2 sides of a coin… and indifference’s all I’m right now…

2008-10-28T18:06:00.002+08:00

i guess the truth is that, after all this while...
i'm still hurting inside.

2008-10-12T19:51:00.002+08:00

had a busy weekend.
met up with a few grps of mates -
the CS folks for some good ol' mellben crabs and dempsey after that.
signal mates for a lill' drinking
elin and keong for lunch then prive over at marinakeppelbay, just chilling and talking.
my sec sch canoeing mates for huiting's 21st at arnada.
lunched with family, and headed over to labrador park while i was driving arnd...

i dont wanna think about the weeks ahead of it.
its sucky...
do me a favour, would you guys?
make me smile and laugh.
cos i have no idea whats its really like to smile and laugh from sunday night - friday evening.
i feel like a different person when i leave the place
and its true.

be back in 2 weeks i hope...
and... i am sad...

pull and grasping at the heartstrings
every tug so deeply echoed
right into the depths it goes
splash, so goes the pebble into the pond
ripples arising at the very centre
danger lurking around
of what could be the evils that emerge
armed with but his will
he goes all out
but it seems so hopeless
emptiness outweighing positiveness that could be mastered
but still he hangs in there,
not letting go
but needing a whole load of push....

2008-10-06T20:17:00.001+08:00

A long time, such a long long time...

2008-09-28T18:52:00.002+08:00

its sunday yet again
haha...

had an enjoyable weekend really actually
fri met up with the folks from CS to have a good steamboat meal over at Cocoa.
was good, catching up and all

oh i bumped into jasmine which was a surprise. and we met rabia on the bus ! haha
the traffic was really horrible though..

sat, finally got my latest copy of entourage.
saw a few fellas arnd. and met eddie outside HMV. haha
headed over to newton for a quick bite before heading back.

sun was rest and relax for me...
had a nice long enjoyable run, to mt faber, thru the trail and forest walk.
encountering a few monkeys which was nice except for the china tourists feeding them with nuts.

hang in there,
the night is always darkest before dawn.
as sure as the sun will rise,
so too will your days.

2008-09-22T19:47:00.002+08:00

been a heck of a week...
spent a friday at the function as usual being saikang warrior...
how pathetic.

met adrian and roy and had imperial treasure for dinner followed by drinks at a pub. was nice, catching up and all.

sat - went out and had nice chicken rice and belgium waffles and old school swiss roll filled with kaya and durian. met the guys for dinner at carnivore, which was really quite satisfying actually. haha headed over to pick ls up before going to a pub for some dice games, 2 bottles of chivas, and the eventual 5 bottles of beer that killed me. hahahaha

sun - headed out early after all that booze. was nice catching the sun... spent a lazy afternoon at home before heading out at night again.. haha

mon - gonna go back. sigh

give me life..

2008-09-15T20:09:00.002+08:00

if i asked, would you say yes?

in a deep funk these few days, in a rut i cant seem to get out of.
sigh

Tim's Flight - T3

2008-09-08T09:29:00.003+08:00

had a good weekend.
was out with mich liang liang and jerry on fri night for supper,ending up at bedok block 85 for the staple food there, with chicken wings (that gave me a sore throat - must be due to the stupid jerry cursing the wings) before ending up at t3 for some Macs icecream - like wth right, go all the way to t3 for Macs ice cream??? hahahah

spent time with elin and tim over the weekend. obviously someone was late, so tim and i had a pricey $40 lunch at sakura which was outright awful. and we couldnt believe it was so sucky man. haha headed over to her new place which was nice before cabbing to sentosa. lurge ! was fun though there was a moron there which kinda spoilt a bit of our experience. was really nice, sitting at the beach watching the sunset and just chilling out spending time with quality friends. headed to delifrance for lunch and to take shelter from the storm.

Holed up inside delifrance, with a couple of crossaints and a 6pack beer to accompany us. It was nice... suddenly in a flash, we have all gone past our secondary school days and are now proceeding with tertiary plans.

i believe the next time we meet up would be 4 years later, all 4 of us. As we said, probably in a posh restaurant, with elin stealing our food, me throwing food around, jessine ordering weird stuff and tim eating tissue paper. hahahaha

woke up at 4am today and picked elin up from her hse before going to the airport to send tim off. i realise that like almost everyone is going overseas! damn... haha

gotta stop procrastinating and go make plans for my studies and all....

if i never knew you...

Safra Singapore Bay Run & Army Half Marathon 2008

2008-08-26T14:45:00.004+08:00

Its been a long time since i last updated.
so what have i been up to?
was roped into helping with the organisation's annual event, which this year yet again rested on my particular unit. was attached to safra for a couple of days, where i was yet again sai kang warrior. haha

but in all honesty, i really appreciated the time i had there. though the unpleasanties were such as the long hours, infrequent meal times or even the upteem frustrations i had. but simply because, the stint there made me realise how my attitude has changed ever since enlistment, particularly after all the training schools periods. where once a time help was given because i wanted to, now unfortunately my mindset has been that help rendered must be reciprocrated in a directly proportional amount of off days. Its true that everyone else thinks this way, but i realised how fucked up that was...

was glad to see a lot of familar faces on sunday. saw the folks from my last unit, from SI and sispec times. eh i just realised it was weird i din see any bmt folks. haha. its been approximately a year and 3 months. with around 9 months left.

working with safra also somewhat gave me back my determination of sorts. and i guess, i will keep trying.. =)

Living in the moment

2008-07-29T19:54:00.002+08:00

"To learn to stop sacrificing the present for the future and to begin living in the moment"

This is a story, about a boy named Peter.

Peter and the Magic Thread.

Peter was a very lively boy. Everyone loved him: his family, his teachers and his friends. But he had one weakness. Peter could never live in the moment.

He had not learned to enjoy the process of life. When he was in school, he dreamt of being outside playing. When he was outside playing, he dreamt of his summer vacation. Peter constantly daydreamed, never taking the time to savor the special moments that filled his days.

One morning, Peter was walking out in a forest near his home. Feeling tired, he decided to rest on a patch of grass and eventually dozed off. After a few minutes of deep slumber, he heard someone calling out his name. "Peter, Peter!" came the shrill voice from above. As he slowly opened his eyes, he was startled to see a striking woman standing above him. She must have been a hundred years old and her snow-white hair dangled well below her shoulders like a matted blanket of wool. In this woman's wrinkled hand was a magical little ball with a hole in the center and out of the hole dangled a long golden thread.

"Peter", she said, ' this is the thread of your life. If you pull the thread just a bit, an hour will pass in seconds. If you pull a little harder, whole days will pass in a minute. And if you pull with all your might, months- even years- will pass by in days.' Peter grew very excited at this discovery. 'I'd like to have it if I may?' Peter asked. The elderly woman quickly reached down and gave the ball to Peter.

The next day, Peter was sitting in class feeling restless and bored. Suddenly, he remembered his new toy. As he pulled a little bit of the golden thread, he quickly found himself at home, playing in the garden. Realizing the power of the magic thread, Peter soon grew tired of being a school boy and longed to be a teenager; with all the excitement that phase of life would bring. So again, he pulled hard on the golden thread. Suddenly, he was a teenager with a very pretty girlfriend named Elise.

But Peter still wasn't content. He had never learned to enjoy the moment and to explore the simple wonders of each stage of his life. Instead, he dreamed of being an adult. So again he pulled the thread and many years whizzed by in an instant. Now he found that he had been transformed into a middle-aged adult.

Elise was now his wife and Peter was surrounded with a houseful of kids. Peter also noticed that his once black hair has turned to grey. And his youthful mother whom he loved so dearly had grown old and frail. Yet Peter still could not 'live in the now'. So, once again he pulled the magic thread and waited for changes to appear.

Peter was now a 99 year old man. His thick dark hair turned white and his beautiful young wife had also grown old and passed away a few years earlier. His wonderful children had grown up and left home to lead lives of their own. For the first time in his entire life, Peter realized that he had not taken the time to embrace the wonders of living. He had never gone fishing with his kids nor took a stroll in the park with Elise. Neither has he planted a garden or read a book. Instead, he hurried through life; never resting to see all that was good along the way.
Peter became very sad at the discovery. He decided to go out to the forest where he used to walk as a little boy to clear his head and warm his spirit. The forest itself had matured into a paradise of nature. He laid down on a small patch of grass and fell into deep slumber. After only a minute, he heard someone calling out to him. He looked up in astonishment to see that it was none other than the old woman who had given him the ball with the golden thread many years earlier.

"Have you enjoyed my special gift?' she asked.

Peter was direct in his reply. ‘At first it was fun but now I hate it. My whole life has passed before my eyes without giving me the chance to enjoy it. Sure, there would be sad times as well as great times but I haven’t had the chance to experience either. I feel empty inside. I have missed the gift of living.'

'You are very ungrateful.' said the old woman. 'Still, I will give you one last wish.'

Peter thought for an instant and then answered hastily ' I'd like to go back to being a schoolboy and live my life over again.' He then returned to deep sleep.

Again he heard someone calling out his name. 'Who could it be this time' he wondered. When he opened his eyes, he was extremely delighted to see his mother standing over his bed side. She looked young, healthy and radiant. Peter realized that the strange woman had indeed granted his wish and he had returned to his former life.

'Hurry up Peter. You will be late for school if you don't get up right now' his mother admonished. Needless to say, Peter dashed out of bed on this morning and began to live the way he had hoped. Peter went on to live a full life, one rich with many delights, joys and triumphs, but it all started when he stopped sacrificing the present for the future and began to live in the moment.

This story stuck a chord with me..
Does it with you too?

320 days

2008-07-27T19:38:00.002+08:00

and i say yes, you look wondeful tonight...

Slowly getting out of my funk...
Whilst reading the other day, i came across this excerpt so meaningful and true.
Will share it with u guys soon cos i left the book in camp...
5 months left till the end of the year and i've still got my leave, a thought that keeps me sane.
Seriously.

my knee's pretty bad..
somehow or the other, running seems to be taking its toil on my legs.
the 5km,7km and 12km runs worsened my ankle and heel injury, which was caused by stubborn me going for a 40km route march on a recovering sprained ankle and a bleeding toe.

Currently, it seems to be affecting my left knee cap, the left side of it. It hurt so badly, like a bitch.

i could barely walk on friday... i'm not exgagerating but the pain was really fucking bad.
couldn't bend my knee, so had to straighten it thruout. so yeah i was limping quite badly. screw that man... and the bloody organisation which is causing me to accumulate all these injuries one after another. Gotta go see my ortho doc soon...

Gotta get my drive back, somehow.

2008-07-13T17:25:00.002+08:00

went to the chalet on thurs and fri at aloha changi, only to get immediately assaulted by a fuckload of mozzies and still had me going "Huh??" at the chalet even after a good half hour after arrival. haha

nothing much abt the chalet.. fri got home at noon time and settled my stuff only to head out later at night to meet the guys for drinks and to party, settling for overpriced bak kut teh and some ice hk tea at the end of it around 5plus. spent my sat afternoon lazing arnd and having time of my own. headed out at night to meet the guys for some grub at shukudo, a marche style japanese concept over at raffles city. was really great seeing all of them and we were just catching up and all.

headed back to paragon to pick up xq's car (he parked at paragon and took a train down cos he din know how to drive there. hahahahah someone's actually beat me in directional losing), then over to bishan to get but but but's car and lastly to east coast park at around 11pm. playing arcade and bowling. haha "light approach" vs "strength" and "beginners luck beginning to show". that was funny. got drinks and headed to the jetty to talk and of cos, some good 'ol dai dee as well!

was nice, just talking and enjoying the sea breeze with the ppl that you enjoy being in the company in. too bad we din take any pics though. haha oh well, theres always a next time i suppose. headed home and got knocked out straight away. haha

will post next week abt this issue thats been bothering me for quite a while...
cya all and tc yo..

2008-07-04T21:29:00.002+08:00

the thing with friendship is effort really.

Know that i'll be there and that i will always make time for y'all, always.

2008-07-04T17:41:00.002+08:00

To be mediocre for the rest of your life, or to be perfect for a year ?

the week gone past in a flash;
physio session, book-ins(bummer) and book-outs(yay, partying and drinking, catching a movie...

dun let the weekend end............

2008-06-22T21:18:00.001+08:00

A new chapter tomorrow.

i'm learning to live without you now...

2008-06-14T19:24:00.000+08:00

I feel so hollow inside, this tugging at the heartstrings
It's incredibly bittersweet,
this and that's been said and done
the dawning of a new age
the closure of a chapter
Nostalgence so surreal
it almost feels like a waking dream...

outfield..

2008-05-25T17:33:00.001+08:00

I keep getting tested over and over again...

oh well, i will be back in the awesome outdoors, yet on another outfield exercise.
Nothing much to blog about, quite a bad weekend cos there wasn't much of it!
booked out late on friday, was too beat to do anything already.
sat: went shopping and it was indeed a hilarious experience.
Cant believe what we bought.

Caught the arts performance along the river; was pretty interesting
had a couple of beers and it was all good, just hanging out, taking the piss out of everyone.
hahahahaha

"make this the best fight of your life; and i will indeed."

Emo 397 Days

2008-05-11T01:49:00.002+08:00

To Be Appreciative;
because you don't take things for granted and regret when you realise it's not.

Feeling damn hollow tonight, the pulling and anchoring at the core pulse.
Clock is ticking late, it's almost 3am.
Eyes are beat, it's a struggle to stay awake
Yet i don't retire just yet,
So much tugging at the heartstrings
I don't want to think anymore
yet my mind's still whirling
tossing up images of yesteryears
smells from the past
sounds of history
what can i do, just but me...

damn, i'm getting really emo for quite sometime already

I will be okay soon...
soon being a relative term.

2008-05-04T19:38:00.002+08:00

If i have to put my thoughts into words...

"Be Well"

I wish that of you, and to be happy always.

2008-05-02T20:54:00.001+08:00

Naught to say...

I haven't been in the best of situations lately, but still surviving; somehow.

i need a getaway.....

2008-04-20T17:27:00.002+08:00

The irony of it all

went to Melben for some yummy butter crabs and crab bee hoon.
Durians were an added plus, making the entire feast a really satisfyingly unhealthy one. hahahaha

2008-04-19T14:48:00.001+08:00

For you, a thousand times over

2008-03-30T19:20:00.001+08:00

I miss those days

2008-03-25T10:56:00.002+08:00

Loads of things have been happening and i've just been caught up in all of 'em.
Got unknowingly swept up into a sticky mess...
Shall not elaborate much about it, was quite unpleasant for me
in fact i would deem it a rude shock to have found out.
All's been said and done and i would have to be more wary in future i guess.

Reading back on previous blog entries was nice
Taking in and relishing the days of fun
i used to be so carefree, so happy go lucky...
but i don't know why, in recent months i seem to have grown darker and negative within myself...
Is it cos of my lack of freedom?
Its somewhat stifling, the restrictions and regementation.
I guess i can only hope that i get over it soon...
i will i will !

check out the countdown timer i've got!
Click on Tags.. =D

I chance upon the past landmarks,
Taking in the familar sights and taking slow deep breaths.
It's incredibly bittersweet,
this hurt and peace within my heart
Both conflictingly coexsisting
My head's a whirl
i cant think straight
Scenes from the past playing like a loop of reel on replay
Winding to and fro
I look to the horizon, to the promise of a new day
And i am comforted, because i know
Time allows you to forget about past wounds...

Regrets

2008-03-23T16:14:00.000+08:00

i don't wanna have any regrets..
i really don't.
but it seems time and time again
that i can be trying my best, my very best
and it doesn't make any difference at all...

MSK

2008-03-21T13:12:00.001+08:00

Because people change...

"It always hurts more to have and lose
than to not have it in the first place"

First week in 23 sig

2008-03-16T01:46:00.003+08:00

its been a long week...
and its only gonna get longer in the weeks to come..
I'm in a new place right now and i'm getting used to things there
but its really really very tiring
and i feel so dejected..

n-n-now-th-that don't kill me
Can only make me stronger

2008-03-09T11:32:00.002+08:00

we've all had the time of our lives at one point or another...

and theres that word tingled with sadness, nostalgia, regret and wistfulness: "Closure"

is it a good or bad thing; closure ?
in a sense, theres the finality and sense of comfort with it that all's been done and said has been finalised of sorts. yet there's also the what if's that comes with closure, of what could have been and the potential there was; untapped and latent.

Hurling down the highway,
lights flashing and screaming
Motion fixated on speed
Spinning out of control
Despair setting in
The glimmer of hope flickering
dying down to a minute flame
Slowly but surely till extinguishment

2008-03-06T19:54:00.001+08:00

i've gotta report back tomorrow!!!
oh no...

i made an interesting observation about myself:
that i only let those i trust laugh at myself

if you know me you should probably know what sorta ridiculous and stupid scenarios i find myself in most of the time... hahahahahahhaa

Monday Leave

2008-03-03T11:03:00.003+08:00

i'm on leave till thursday, and seeing as free as i am, i'll probably break habit and do a massive OD on blogging.

hahaha.

i'm so so so so BOREDDDD......
can't get out of the country either, save for that day trip to JB last saturday with my mates. what should i dooooo???

ok, i'm rambling and i'm gonna head out now for a lunch appt.
I like the pic below... =)

D40X

2008-03-02T12:29:00.002+08:00

I'm thinking of getting the Nikon D40X, retailing at around $1200.
Ladies and Gentlemen, please dial 1800-JUNYAN to donate.
=D

2008-03-01T07:24:00.001+08:00

I really can't believe it's been a year...
I guess it's good...
that i can joke about it now

2008-02-23T19:37:00.002+08:00

Its been 3 months and my current course is now coming to an end.
The highlight, as many would agree: Ex Endurance
An exercise consisting of 3 components: the 40km route march, topography skills and technical skills.

It was indeed a very memorable experience.
Split into teams of 3 each, we were basically on our own wandering around Singapore in the late of the night. Walking from Bukit Panjang to Kranji Dam to Lim Chu Kang to Bukit Batok and back to Bukit Panjang.

Civillians were pointing at us and going: "what are they doing??"
i guess it must seemed really weird, seeing 3 soliders in Full Battle Order, rifle and a singal set with a 3m long anteens (attached with a salem stick, drawing more attention to it no less) walking in the heartlands.

Haha, i was pretty amused. Oh and we heard many ppl going: "ORD LO" when they saw us. What motivation eh. i was walking with a swollen ankle and a bleeding toe. Ok fine, i shall admit i was stubborn and i wanted to complete the exercise.

At the end of it, removing my boots saw me going WTF mentally when i saw my ankle and toe. Something disgusting: blood clotted up and i had to tear my socks off. and you can imagine the flesh that went with it. bloody hell.

All in all, i pretty much enjoyed this exercise. Weird huh, coming from the guy who isn't the most positive of military personnels. I guess this exercise was more of a mental than physical one. Right down to the point where you're walking down the endless road and you ignore the heavy load on your back and press on, yelling encouragement to the mates lagging behind and putting aside the fact that there was much more distance to cover.

My team wasn't v lucky, being the last allocated team, we were of cos last to move out, having to keep stores for some stations as well (to add on to our fatigue), one of my mates fell out cos of a prior injury, leaving 2 of us to press on. He did join us back when he felt better, which was good.

Alrighty, i'm heading out now... Update more later !

Random note: i went to sew my rank just now. I brought a brand new pair of uniform in SM size (Small Medium) there. it came back in M size. Wtf????

2008-02-16T18:29:00.002+08:00

The days we used to run,
oh how we ran; fast and free
the promise of tomorrow that we could have
maybe...

i'm feeling pretty dejected...
Oh well.

I am dying to go for a trip away from the city soon and more importantly from the dictatorshop for the organisation that controls me like a mindless robbot now!
haha, anyone has got any suggestions?

did 16km route march this week, which was pretty okay
gonna do the 38km one nxt friday
hopefully it'll be okay too though i feel quite apprehensive with regards to the upcoming one

will update soon... i guess

2008-02-09T15:36:00.000+08:00

Oh how the days of fleeting youth beckon;
to the days of past and present...

i'm so restless!!!
Gotta find something to do in my life
beyond the usual army stuff... haha
anyone has any sugesstions????

CNY, a cause for family reunions and celebrations
so how did my CNY start off?
on Chu Xi, i got fucking sandfly bites and had to consult a doctor for $55 inclusive of a jab and 5 tablets.
aside from that, and the silly incident where i lost my footing on the stairs and having twisted my ankle from that, the Chinese New Year's been pretty great.

16km route march on monday.. hopefully my ankle can take it cos i've got no desire at all to fall out.. haha
its gonna be end of course in just a couple of weeks, and its on to the next posting wherever that will bring me too.

something to think about: Love, a function of memory?

2008-02-03T09:30:00.003+08:00

The needle tears a hole...
beyond the familar pain,
the realisation of what's past and gone
abruptly with the thud of a hollow soul.

2008-01-06T12:01:00.000+08:00

i went to have a hair cut yrstday, it was 8 bucks.
but i rather pay my usual 25 bucks to trim my hair than the 8 bucks to cut my hair.

i look just like a recruit now.
fuck.

2008-01-06T10:20:00.000+08:00

If i could but just have one wish for this year ...

2008-01-01T10:38:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year !
May 2008 be a great year ahead

2007-12-25T19:33:00.001+08:00

Omg I’m so broke, I swear I’ve gotta live on a non existence lifestyle going forward
The brokest I’ve been for the last 1.5 years.
Hahahaha

On another note; Merry Christmas

Broke + Christmas
Doing the math = Junyan went broke getting Christmas presents.
True or False?

Answer… TRUE !!

Post Birthday at Hanabi

2007-12-16T12:28:00.001+08:00

Detachment...
Aptly titled i think, but for whose's sake and for whose's benefit?

Maybe years down the road, i will ponder and wonder, of the many different ways that it could've turned out. But at this point of time, my thoughts are that... i'm simply not deserving at all...

Don't know why, but its been getting increasingly harder to muster up a smile on my face. it seems that theres nothing to really look forward to, nothing that gets me up and raring. This is one of my favourite pictures, if you know me you should be able to figure out why so...

when there's nothing but an awaking dream,
in a spectrum of steel and stone
the dream goes pop,
crashing down and splashing up.
and when we're at rock bottom
the only way to go is simply... Up

2007-12-09T13:11:00.001+08:00

for the strength to carry on,
for times like now are the most trying ones.

last week of bslc

2007-11-25T19:48:00.001+08:00

met up with quite a lot of ppl this weekend;
friday saw me booking out at 9pm and meeting the ex collegues at purvis street for what was supposed to be a meet up.
instead, i was surprised by my surprise birthday dinner. hahaha
had loads of cakes, oreo cheesecake, new york cheese cake, praline cake, bread and butter pudding, blueberry cheesecake, strawberry cheesecake etc

thanks guys, really great to have met ya'all

saturday, lunch with a couple of old frens that i'haven seen in quite a while
was good eh. haha

sat night, met up with my army mates to attend alvyn's bash at raffles the plaza where he got a suite

my inital plan was to get the grand platter from Canele Patisseie, but it was not avaliable at the Paragon outlet and the young kid working at the counter stared at me like i was a retard, which pretty much pissed me off. Hey, i've got a crew cut, it does not mean i'm a retard.

was great seeing the gang and had a good laugh at alvyn's outfit !
HAHAHAHAHAHA

sunday, rest and relax at home.
had my 3rd birthday cake. as you guys shud probably know, i love cakes. hahahaha
now i'm preparing to book in back to camp...

oh and the best piece of news all year?
i'm doing the 28km route march on my birthday
from after dinner around 8pm to nxt morning 6am w/o slp
hahahahaha

will update nxt week yo...

Stardust

2007-11-11T10:35:00.000+08:00

You light the skies, up above me
A star, so bright, you blind me, yeah
Don’t close your eyes
Don’t fade away, don’t fade away

- closing song for Stardust, "rule the world - Take that"

caught Stardust yesterday after having dim sum and yummy desserts at Chinatown yrstday
a great movie, liked it
got another pair of Levis yrstday, the copper series
am so tempted to get the itouch now !!

3 weeks more to go till end of course!

All the stars are coming out tonight
They're lighting up the sky tonight
For you, for you
All the stars are coming out tonight
They’re lighting up the sky tonight
For you, for you

fucking field camp

2007-11-03T12:30:00.000+08:00

Completed my last week of field camp
it was truly miserable in every sense of the word, i've never felt so down before

picture this:
wednesday, i was my slot of sentry duty, from 1am to 2am
at 130am, it started to rain, it was only a slight drizzle and so i din bother abt it
finishing at 2am, i went back to my position to try to get some slp
oh yeah, fyi, there's only a ground sheet on the floor
at 2am, the heavens opened up
it was pouring and i was totally soaked
akin to wearing the army uniform and standing under a shower, i'm not exageratting, it was that bad
oh and get this, we weren't allowed to go to shelter and were told to "wear our jacket and wait for instructions"

wtf is going on man
i tried to slp but to no avail
was fucking cold, to the point i was shivering and my teeth were chattering

at arnd 3am, 2 of my mates came over to join me
and it was such a pathetic sight, 3 of us sitting on the fucking wet ground sheet, wondering when the fucking rain would fucking stop
it was cold, wet, miserable. at that point of time, all we were thinking of was to go home, take a hot bath, have a cup of hot tea, but oh no we were all stuck in that bloody island in the fucking rain

so sitting down wasn't such a good option, our lower halves were dripping wet, so from arnd 330am, we stood up, to minimize the amt of rain on our body (although it wasn't much of a help cos we were already fucking soaked)

i shivered from 2am to the next morning and morale was so damn low and down.

all in all, it rained from 130am to the next morning 9am
boots were completely filled with water
that sucked big time
and i went out for a mission that morning with my boots filled 3/4 water
came back, some of us started a fire to try to dry our socks
hahahahaha
this part is funny,
urm i uh burnt one of my socks
(i was drying it over the fire when smoke appeared, oops)

Truly a hard to forget field camp (note that i refrain from using the term memorable, cos to me, memorable is used to describe a past event that was postive and you would relive that experience over again if you've got a chance, but this field camp was HARD TO FORGET)

fuck it man, 5 months passed, 1 year + more to go
just hope i will survive !
hahahaha

random thoughts

2007-10-13T18:59:00.000+08:00

random thoughts in camp that make me laugh

1. how we used to play dai dee all the time in poly (literally all the time, in canteen, at the cafe, in the bus etc)
2. the idea of jerry being a tree climber. hahahaha, imagine walking from sch to the mrt station just for fun.
3. ying liang as ROSY and and her champion breed dog which had its balls cut off. hahahaha and its tail which is like a pig's tail !
4. huimin's "tsunami" voice and ayumi going "i know i pretty, dun jealous" (ahem ahem). the fun we had during Baoc, amazing race, projects with huimin, eddie, peiying and kaiwei.
5. how we celebrated everyone's bdae in sch, which usually ended off with the high note of cake smashing and the singing of oneself's own bdae song standing on a canteen table right smack in the business block canteen.
6. the frequent tea breaks i had in the office, of cakes, cookies, tim tams. 3pm coke breaks with Anthony etc.
7. drinks after work
8. food hunts with the collegues that changed to become great friends
9. how we complained abt doing projects and bitched abt the process but we always got through it in the end
10. when we went to eat at imperial treasure and we had "hashima" and had ian and the others exclaiming "FROG SPIT???" hahaah that was classic
11. the great food i had, e.g. clayfish hor fun, samsui chicken, ginseng chicken soup, herbal chicken, roasted chicken sandwich, wasabi prawns, cod fish, dim sum, drunken prawns, chilli crab, black pepper crab, buffets etc
12. how we got dragged into almost every single Sasa in HK by jessine
13. eating roasted pigeon which i din really like. hahahah
14. eating fab dim sum at Maxim's at City Hall
15. in thailand, asking very confidently " bird nest?" and answering with a resounding "ok let's go in" when we were told there was bird nest. And.... almost fainting from the sheer prices. hahahahhaha
16. Thailand " Cheap cheap, how muchchee, wholesale? " and at Platinum mall, where the ppl at info counter announced " Can Miss Matilda Grace Chan and her frens from Singapore please meet at the info counter now?" hahahahha reference to the Singapore Idol
17. going with elin to watch jessine's fashion show at labador park. Getting lost there at the peak while the show was at the bottom. and to be greeted at the sight of like millions of bangalas running towards us (ok fine, we reaslied they were running towards the cruise ship)
18. how we always complained abt the weight of our laptops. hahaha
19. the pharse " Wah so cheap, can buy and wear as PJs"
20. my old bunk and how we used to tease ridwan, laugh at roy banks, talk abt a certain someone, and all the stupid things we did. wild boar during shellscrape, combat rations, live range and so much more

random thoughts that make me sian in camp

1. 3 consecutive weeks of outfield coming right up
2. combat rations
3. cold showers even when it is raining and freezing
4. the fact that no matter how much area cleaning is done, the floor is still damn dirty and has like dust balls
5. "unique individuals"
6. life under a regiment and being subjected to laws and regulations
7. sitting in the hot sun for no bloody reason
8. marching to the cookhouse
9. the load that we have to carry, i can literally hear my shoulders wheezing and trying to catch its breath. ok that was a really bad analogy, but who cares? hahahaha
10. that i have got 1 year 7 months more to ORD
11. the lack of sleep, everyday sleeping 5 or 6 hours only
12. imagine getting up at 450am everyday and sleeping at arnd 11plus or 12. my official hours are something like from 515am to 1030pm, which is like 17+ hours. do that for 2 years and you can imagine how detrimental that is to one's health. sleep is important!
13. the bloody mosquitoes that can even bite thru my uniform. as of today, i have 14 bites on my shoulder blades alone. yes i counted. and that's not mentioning the legs, thighs, hands, fingers etc.
14. 20 mins meal breaks
15. having everything planned out for ya and you don get to make a decision
16. EVERYTHING !

hahahah, oh wells, 2 years will pass by in a flash, wouldn't it?
and it will be on to a new path, of further education and of cos back into the working society.

=)

2007-09-30T12:32:00.000+08:00

i don't seem to be having "Happy Camping Days" now
truly a trying period for me as it is now
and it just looks... so bleak

haven't really been updating...

got posted to the new army camp on monday situated at Boon Lay

a tad better than the island Tekong, living conditions are better and there doesn't seem to have rats there, which is good as you guys would prolly know that a fucking rat bit a fucking book in my yet 3 day old Harry Potter book. (P.s. i'm all for the eradication of the fucking rodents and if you disagree, theres something really wrong with you yo)

in true singlish terms, the past week has been "SIAN" for me

Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

2007-09-21T10:14:00.000+08:00

Fuck fuck fuck!
why can't i be a clerk in the armyyyyyyyy!!!!

2007-08-27T01:08:00.000+08:00

Comprehension in a flash
In retrospection lamenting the passing of time
Of actions passed and words already spoken

it's so clear now, that nothing really matters in the ultimate end
somuchtosee, somuchtodo, somuchleftundone

Winston Churchill

2007-08-12T12:27:00.000+08:00

Sure I am that this day we are masters of our fate,
That the task which has been set before us is not above our strength;
That its pangs and toils are not beyond my endurance.
As long as we have faith in our own cause and an unconquerable will to win, victory will not be denied to us.

FAITH

2007-07-16T17:08:00.001+08:00

Myspace Countdown Clocks at WishAFriend.com

2007-06-13T20:36:00.000+08:00

enlistment, tomorrow

sunday

2007-04-08T15:37:00.000+08:00

" One line can change a story "

how very true.

i'm so frustrated right now. finally, i've began piecing all the components and parts together and it all seems to be working out so well.

and right now a hurdle is thrown at me.

dear god, please let me get in.

anyway, did i mention i went to ubin for the 1st time in my life ?
it was pretty rustic
nice change from the normal beach and such

going hong kong in abt 2 weeks!
a break at final last!
yay (how exciting)

enjoying work now, learning lots of newer things that will definately be of use.

gtg catch ya'll ltr

2007-03-18T17:35:00.000+08:00

2007-03-17T01:07:00.000+08:00

results are out - satisifed with the last result slip i'll ever be getting for poly already

haha, cool eh

working my ass off at work and learning lots of new things that are useful,
funny it seems, how things are piecing together
hopefully though, no domino effect

work work work! 12 hour days, etc
damn sad right. hahaha but oh wells, what to do! (thats work for ya)

oh yeah, imagine this clueless kid doing something at work he is not sure of and laughing like an idiot cos he dunno if it was right/wrong.

that was me last week

results day

2007-03-14T20:55:00.000+08:00

and there are the fucking ungrateful grits

2007-02-13T22:40:00.000+08:00

what do you do when the person beside you is being such a joke, do you tell the person at the risk of sounding like a joke itself because you are telling him not to be a joke and that he thinks its a joke that you are telling him not to be a joke and that it is really a joke?

By the way, that was a JOKE.

haha

have been having orientation these days
refreshing to be away from the desk eh
i'm fucking sian

how does it feel? One more Time!

2007-02-10T13:56:00.000+08:00

school's out for the holidays!

submitted my final report on monday and i felt a big burden lifted off my shoulders cos i had to cope with work and exam and the report and it was quite unbearable.

thankfully, no more reports =)

work these days have been great, been enjoying it
perhaps its cos of all the jokes and company etc

the office is gonna be a ghost town on monday!
at least my side of the office cos all the rest are moving to the new premises!
gotta wait for abt 2 weeks for new ppl to shift in...

oh, - work throws up surprises ever so frequently
revised job scopes for everyone - Hmm

but of cos, i welcome the change and will learn as much as i can, given the limited time i have till army hauls my ass inside

Chinese New Year's here again, will be working... hopefully just for 1 day though !

Finally friday was yesterday, these few days i just seem to get a bit high when its time to go off, just like yesterday when i got out of the office

a perfect day, the weather was great, ipod pluggged in with great songs, wind was blowing and all. a perfect end to the work week, i would say.

oh, anyone caught the new series - Heroes yet?
i love the show! bloody good, reminds me of the yesteryears where i was crazy about X men and like all the marvel superheroes.
pretty cool that i was able to get season 1.
and the cheerleader is pretty cute too. haha

ok, i'm going out now! pics soon
oh yeah, a likely TF01 thing on the 24th Feb, details soon

ta

2007-02-03T09:51:00.000+08:00

ATTACHMENT IS OVER

wow wow wow, let me just stress again. 5 fucking months passed so fast ! ! !
hahaha
but we still got the damn report to complete

yesterday had a nice surprise from the colleagues.. =)

work was okay yesterday (i guess)

headed for dinner with grace mich and sam.
it was my second billy bomber's in a row! gosh

haha work on monday again... hope i dun have to work for all the Public holidays otherwise i sure sian 1/2

back to my damn report

cheers

2007-01-28T23:03:00.000+08:00

It’s the end of my polytechnic life as I know it come next week
I guess in a way, poly has been a security of sorts for me
In the sense that I had no need to worry about work, about Uni studies when I was inside

But now, as it is going,
I have to worry about work, Uni, and National Service (haha)
The security’s gone as poly is coming to and end!!!
(the horrors)

Work, surprisingly, I’m still managing it, though I wouldn’t say very very well,
But I guess, sufficiently would be a term that is appropriate.

i loved primary school for the innocence and the joy that kids were granted. And I would say, the carefree days

Secondary school for letting me learn so much, and for the days of canoeing; rushing down to kallang. Haha! What great days they were.

Poly definitely made me grow the most. The experience I had was amazing, with great friends and classmates and activities all year round. It was indeed a blast.

Yet another phrase of my educational cycle is over.

I look on with both anticipation and trepidation as to what my next stage in education would be. God bless that it will be good news

For now, all I can do is to concentrate on work and to learn as much as possible in the given time. I know it’s beneficial in the long run after all.

And definitely to train up on the fitness, which is fucked up.

Wish me lucks yeah!

2007-01-24T22:01:00.000+08:00

i dunno if i'm making the right choice by staying on..
esp with all my commitments as it is right now
and the never ending work
its driving me nuts, i swear

pros- pay. period
cons- hours, workload, eyesight

and at the rate i'm eating in office, its no wonder i'm getting fat
10am, i'll go get breakfast
then lunch - either lunch in or outside
next is tea break -_-" at 4pm, popiah, dim sum, cup noodles, etc
then dinner

in conclusion, i eat non stop
and i gotta cut down on that and the booze, or i'll have a repeat of tuesday 4pm-7pm
fuck.
fuck.
fuck.

2007-01-14T14:40:00.001+08:00

a line that is so true

" Just because i survived it doesn't mean that it was ever ok "

2007-01-13T15:58:00.000+08:00

finally am a bit better
lots of changes at work while i was sick
hmm, a new boss
not exactly new as i already know him but still i was taken by surprise.

this week had been hell for me
and was lots of sleeping [or trying to sleep]
and to be frank, i was quite delirious.
and din pick up lots of phone calls
oops sorry

went back to work on thurs.. dragged my self back cos we were damn shorthanded
was praying for the day to be over asap

went back to the doctor for a follow up today and he said that cough was quite serious and it became asthmatic bronchitis. but oh well, am recovering!

monday, US holiday can go in work later. yay!
and tues the party at MoS.
and after that it will be less than 2 weeks!

FREEDOM!!

A & E

2007-01-10T10:25:00.000+08:00

last night got sent to SGH's A&E department
-_-"

had an ECG done and xray etc

and i woke up this morning, guess wad, one of the gel stickers from the ECG was still on my chest. apparently the nurse removed all but one.

thanks

2007-01-09T15:54:00.000+08:00

ah fuck the renovations are still ongoing

and for some reason or the other, i keep tasting the scent of blood in my mouth

fever

2007-01-09T10:52:00.001+08:00

Fever: 39.4 degrees [thats a fucking high temperature]

other symptoms: puking, loss of breath, body ache, chills

woke up on Sunday morning to find my whole body being damn hot, but thought that with panadol and rest, i could sleep it away. but felt worst and worst

Puked a few times on sunday night and the most drama thing was that after that i coughed out blood. how nice eh

went to see the doctor on monday as the clinic wasnt open on sunday night.
the clinic is like a normal 5 mins walk from my house. but i swear, it took me at least 15 mins to walk there yesterday
i was breathless all the way and felt like a damn old man.

and i gave up trying to walk back, took a cab back. the fare was 4.50. wtf right, cos got peak hour charge of 2 bucks.

couldn't go for nafa as well and i've got no idea how i can go for the test cos my collegue's taking 2 weeks leave and once my team has someone MIA, no one else can take leave..

shit. so what do i do about my nafa now.

today my throat is super raw, and it feels like sandpaper rubbing against your skin when i swallow.

today, feeling better and took my medicine as usual and tried to sleep
guess what

there's fucking renovations upstairs directly above my room.

what the fuck.

i've been hearing it for an hour now and i swear its driving me nuts
its the incessant drilling and hammering and whatever fuck you do for renovations

FUCK
and the stupid drilling is making my head worst. and thats the only reason why i aint sleeping.

First post of 2007

2007-01-03T20:46:00.001+08:00

i had a post all ready abt 2006
but blogger had to fuck up on me and thus resulted in me unable to post that entry...
but i realised, what's the point anyway?

2006 has been a year of changes, a year of disappointment, a year of progress
Much learnt and much lost along the way

I hope the new year ahead will be a better one… I din really like 2006…

In a flash, 4 months has passed since i joined CS

4 months of working in CS,
4 months of 11 to 12 hour work days
4 months of Marina Square food
4 months of learning, of experiencing, of making mistakes and of progressing

i've missed out on so many other things but...

how do you put a name to something that never really existed?

nintendo wii

2006-12-17T16:19:00.000+08:00

all i want for christmas

the nintendo wii

and a copy of the BLEACH game

how cool would it be, to be able to bankai in real life!

it's the season for giving ! and you know what i want =D

2006-12-16T14:38:00.000+08:00

Friday

- 13 hour work day
- beers
- bed

2006-12-03T17:25:00.000+08:00

oh yes i must blog abt this
a irish martini was ordered among the other drinks
and when the drink came,
the "martini" had whipped cream and was served in a like mini mug

to the waitress "hi, is this the irish cream?"

"yes"

*scratch head
touches the drink
"eh why the fuck is the martini hot"

conclusion: it was a bloody coffee
-_-"

2006-12-03T16:23:00.000+08:00

had a really fun night yesterday
feels like an overseas trip eh
hahaha!

oh and let me introduce ya all to the coolest way of going home
its noe by bus, mrt or car
its by cablecar!

HAHAHAHAHAAHA
too bad i have no pics to post cos the camera had no pic
AHEM.

3 months of attachment has been over and done with
enterting the last remaining third of attachement
and that will be the end of it
the end of poly life as i know it

the start of NS and also the stupid thing abt studies after poly
and of cos, how can one forget about the uncertainties and worries

unless of cos, i strike toto or 4D
come on, let me get a top 3 prize soon
oh or let me win TOTO and i will be ecstatic.

a ps3 will do the same thing too
=D

i'm not fucking okay

2006-11-28T21:43:00.000+08:00

a song i was listening to;

" I'm not fucking okay"

how apt.

2006-11-18T19:35:00.000+08:00

Jon's and Mich;s birthday celebrations last week
it was Manhattan Fish market
with the usual cake celebrations
got jon perfume and mich, cosmetics

post dinner was drinks at holland v
and home at 130am
was good, just hanging out!

Getting my cuppa coffee at the pantry

and introducing....
my new shirt! (haha)
no, actually my desk.

Thats my phone hanging there and which i only use for company calls cos its recorded.
haha

introducing.. the fridge full of drinks! (which we hear is going to be replaced by a vending machine)
the stupid peiying dunno wad to take and took the biggest packet drink (milk)

i like my new shirt.
gonna bring my cam again on Monday for more pictures

pictures to be used for the next BA Open house
LOL

2006-11-09T21:48:00.000+08:00

its a thursday!!
which means that tomorrow is FRIDAY
the best day of the week
the best best day is Saturday
hahaha

seriously work is intergrating with my life
for instance today
the account numbers keep coming up in my head
seriously
i already memorise so many bank codes and accounts
that it is at the back of my head

and that's not good!
to be thinking of work at home...
haha

Edvance talks

2006-11-04T15:51:00.000+08:00

i promise pictures of the office all decked out in its Halloween glory next week!

Went back to school on thursday for the Edvance talk
which was talks held by the various Universities in Singapore

felt so fucking good to be back in school!
saw lots of people
haha

sad to say, the talks were depressing
hahaha
3.7 average gpa to get in?
hell which decent human being scores like that consistently?
hahahaha

sat through the NUS Business talk which was pretty good
next was the NTU business talk which basically put NUS and SMU down.
SMU is the more US orientated local uni
hmm

had plans after that but was called back to office
cos of the sheer amount of work there
sigh
i have officially settled down in my job!
hahaha, 'am more comfortable now
thankfully

i get really hungry in office sometimes
and guess what
i have this huge drawer full of snacks
that me and my collegue contribute to
we have: seaweed, jelly, collon, pocky, potato chips, chocolates, sweets, biscuits in there!
its like a mini snack bar
hahahah

i guess i am used to reporting at 9am and going off at 730pm everyday
10.5 hours work day
sian...

alrites, gonna go get some slp now
its pretty late
haha
more pics soon =)

2006-10-21T19:56:00.000+08:00

almost 2 months of attachment is over!

now for the last 3 mths.

monday - celebrated huimin's birthday with the gang at New York New York
the free candy floss was green apple flava which i liked
hahaha
was fun
good company for dinner
halfway thru, ayumi and i left to go source for the birthday cake
ended up at Raffles City bakery
got the mango delight
haha

Headed down to Holland V for drinks

left around 11pm cos had work the next day!
took a direct cab back (haha)

the next day, woke up feeling damn tired
and wishing that i din have to go to work
hahaha
Learning more new things at work!
no brain cells left man
thank god for classmates all around the company
cos got chatting kahkis that can complain to
LOL

then the week zoomed by!
Friday - Lim and huimin came down to find us for lunch
and it was a TF01 lunch thingy, with weihui, me, lim, huimin and ren
Apple, peiying and shuet were stuck in office. while yingliang had moved to Harbour Front arleady
it was a nice lunch, catching up with lim and ren abt sch and phone banking
hahahah!
and the Delivery Services Loopholes
wtf man.

Saturday, lazed around and went to vivocity
bumped into Yingliang
went to catch a movie after that
and just chilled around
lol

Sunday tmr! sundays are gooood ! ! !

2006-10-14T17:14:00.000+08:00

Finally the long awaited weekend is here!

Work has been relatively smooth… with the exception of this stupid thing.
Argh.

Money has been flowing out of my pocket so freely
And I am broke
Lunch at restaurants, about $20 per meal
Bought the ipod
Cabbing around
Went to see a doctor, which bloody hell charged me $100 for 3 blood tests
And I felt like a specimen with all the moronic medical students crowding around me.

I should have probably exercised my rights as a patient and make a big hoo ha about how insulted I am and such
Hahahah!

Monday to Wednesday was very packed cos my team was understaffed
Got thru that safely
Haha
PHEW

Thursday! Had my TP test…

I believe the picture should tell the result.
Hahaha!
We went back to the center and the tester was like damn serious
I tot I was gonna fail
But surprisingly =)

Headed to Ngee Ann for a while before going for dinner with frens
Being in school felt really good
Really!

Friday, back to the office and working my ass off
Hahaha

Went for dinner and to Vivocity
The viewing gallery thing at night is damn nice
It reminds me of a cruise ship
Nice and huge, a good chilling place
Haha

I'm gonna head out now, so an update when i have time

"The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself into creating something that gives you purpose and meaning."

So, what's YOUR meaning?

Vivocity

2006-10-07T18:04:00.000+08:00

Today we were supposed to go Sentosa
but the haze worsen so much that at 940, we were calling one another
"Eh, can we change to Vivocity instead?"
haha

Eddie was out of his house arleady but the rest of us were still at home
so yah, we changed into going out clothes
haha!

Vivocity is fucking big!!
wah lau, though not a lot of shops were opened.
there are shops like Zara, Topman, Gap etc
and the largest GV cinema in Singapore
we initially wanted to catch the movie there but earliest screening was at 230 and we had 2 hours to kill
so we went to cinne and caught "the Scoop"

the plot.. was lacking
the opening and closing of the movie was abrupt
the middle part was still ok though

walked around and around town.
and ate all those Jap stuff like Jap noodles and yakitori
Getting a bit sian of Jap
When eating with collegues, we will go to Waraku
which is a Jap restaurant at Marina too.

a camera was brought out today
but surprisingly, no pictures were taken
so i shall post last time sentosa pictures
haha!

Jon, Grace, Me

Ayumi, Huimin, Peiying, Eddie, Me

Coincidentally, that's all 7 of us present today!

Nxt week meeting up for Huimin's birthday, so more pictures then!

Oh yeah
My driving test's nxt thursday!!
hahaha
argh damn hopefully i pass
=D

God, please bless me for the weeks of work ahead of me

sigh

5 weeks/ 25% completed

15 weeks/75% more to go

Flashdance

2006-10-03T23:01:00.000+08:00

at this point in time, i just feel pretty much miserable
its hard keeping the faith alive
when the odds stacked high against all

choices that will haunt you for the rest of your life
or so it seems
In the end, nothing really matters
nothing really does

Just grit your teeth and try to get through it all

Work

2006-09-19T21:15:00.000+08:00

5 months of attachment = 20 weeks

currently it is week 3

junyan, 17 weeks more

sian. today had an inefficient day
and as many of you would know
i am not particularly a big fan of inefficiency

argh

had IMF at ACM yesterday
the delegate's spouses thing and all at the ACM
was pretty fun
whoa there was massive bitching in the auditorium!
yup abt this person who has a huge attitude problem

lol
was laughing like mad during the whole time!
haha

we headed down to raffles city thai express for Lunner
had bens and jerrys =)
anyway was quite a break from working..

sigh..17 weeks more
faster go go go!

work week 2

2006-09-16T08:41:00.000+08:00

Results were out yesterday
and i am satisfied with my results
haha

going to the library to study and all that..
no more of that! =D

But nontheless, i will still miss school

------

went for the IMF briefing at ACM yesterday morning
which pretty much was walking around the ACM and restaurant

went back to work after that with lpy
haha
first time go work at 11am sia!

was the boss's bdae so my depart ppl went to Secret Recepie to get the cake
which was nice!

no photos cos nobody bought a digi cam along
hahaha

ok going back to slp now
got woken up early morning
cos they tot i had work
which i dun
considering its a SATURDAY!!!!

i love the weekends man!

Work!

2006-09-07T19:54:00.000+08:00

ahh! my bangkok draft seems to keep dying on it
will fix it asap !

attachment has started
really fortunate cos i have really nice working collegues that help me out and teach me patiently
very thankful for that!!
hope i can perform well
i have filled up one entire notebook already! and i'm on my second notebook

and its a plus seeing familar faces around
going to the pantry and all
i'm seated near the toilet (which is good since i go and pee so frequently) and the printer
and more or less everyone will pass by me
haha
and all of us meet for lunch together!
can even like meet ren, yingliang and bo cos they are so near
lol!

the learning curve is super steep now
but i'm sure it will be fine soon.. I HOPE!
hahaha

be back to blog on the weekend
work is tiring me out
hahaha

2006-09-03T19:38:00.000+08:00

2006-09-01T11:44:00.000+08:00

26 August

We met up at MRT Stations before making our way down to Changi Airport!
As usual, we were busy cam whoring all the way there in anticipation of the holiday ahead of us. Haha

at the budget terminal

lol?

Flight there was quite okay ( it was better than the flight back )
Touchdown at Bangkok International Airport at 2 plus
And aft being ushered thru the immigration gates, we were like : “ eh shit, wheres our driver?”
Cos like, there were 2 exits and we din know where our driver was
We managed to find him after some looking around and off to our hotel we went!

The hotel was quite basic and clean
Yah so we put down our luggage and we went to CHATUCHAK!
15000 shops spread out in bugis street style
Whoa it was so fucking big!
We took the sky train there
Bought t shirts there and like watches and whatnots
Haha
We shopped till that place closed, going without lunch too!
Haha

Took a cab back to the hotel
We paid the uncle “school fees”
That idiot ripped us off
So there were 6 of us, he said no meter, we tot it was the norm and he called a price of 300 baht, which was about 12 bucks sing
Bargained it down to 250 baht
And guess what we realized, the starting fare was 35 baht. So like he totally and completely ripped us off?

Dropped our things at the hotel and we went off to eat A&W!

ROOT BEER!!!

i'm a kid at heart. hahaha

Bought mineral water and gum and all those at the 7 eleven!
Haha
Came back to the hotel to watch star movies!
Watched the sweetest thing and something else

Haha and playing with cards before we slowly grew tired and retired for slp

just a few hours worth of shoppingh

And REN was snoring!
Wtf! Haha
I told eddie to kick him awake but he din want to
It was like symphony man

27 August

Had our breakfast at the hotel lobby
And went off to chatuchak again!
We met up with RENTY who bought us around
We shopped like crazed idiots
With 750baht, we could buy like 8 t shirts
A shirt is 2 bucks for girls and 4 for guys
Hahaha!

Had a sumptuous meal at chatuchak
The bill came up to only 20 plus and there were 7 of us!
The fried chicken and the pork and everything was nice!
Walked somemore and more and more
We were exhausted at 3+ and we settled down at a roadside stall for toast and coconut drinks
Ren and renty came and we decided to go back to our hotel
This was a routine for us
To go back to the hotel to put stuff first
Cos we had too much!

Headed down to Mah Boon Krong
Had dinner there at the restaurant
Wha lau the servings were bloody small
Haha
Shopped and shopped and shopped till we peng
Ten took a tuk tuk back to the hotel!

28 August

Bright and early we woke up!
Had breakfast at the lobby
We went to Erawan Shrine for prayers
It’s one of the most visited shrine in Thailand
So I read from the guidebook
Went on to shopping malls!
Cant rmbr the names though
Only remembered Platinum Mall

Platinum Mall is like the Thai version of Far East
But with bargaining
Conversation snippets: “ How much? 150 baht? Wholesale how muchee?”
Us: “ No no, 100 baht, wholesale. Final price!”
HAHAHAHA

We proceeded for lunch
But to meet up with the girls, we had to, page them over the PA System!
“Miss Matilda Jay Lau Pei Ying from Singapore please meet your friends at level 1”
HAHAHAHAHA
After that I got paged
Lunch lunch lunch
After that the guys decided to go for massage
The girls, to continue shopping

We entered that place
And at first it was foot massages
But I saw got oil massage
So I asked for that
The people at the place call hp for the person to come back
Wah lau, wtf, its like a guy with make up
Anyway, the massage was average only

After that, we met up and pictures below details what we did
Haha
Oh we went to tailor shirts too, by this guy who tailored clothes for the miss universe contestants when they went to BKK

Tuk tuk back to the hotel again!
Left our things there
And went to the 24/7 place for dinner
Dinner was quite nice
I liked the sweet and sour fish
Haha
Headed to the convenience store to buy bottled water again. Oh ya on the first day we bought the 6 litres water, totally showing the kiasu trait in us.
Back to STAR movies again!
With Volcano sending me off to slp
Hahaha

29 August

Woke up bright and early to go to China town
Where they found Jenny’s and went crazy! Hahahah
I bought pencils for apple
=D

Had lunch at this shangrila name place
Wah lau
It was so embarrassing
Eddie: “ bird nest? Got ? good! “ shark fin? Good! *Clap*”
And we went in
Wtf
The food was like overprized
Hahaha
And we ate dim sum and fried rice and noodles
Ji lok kok yi xia!
Hahaha

Went to Siam Paragon
Where the car showrooms were
Like Ferrari, lambos, and maseratis!!!
Fucking nice man!

Siam center was next and siam square and hard rock and all those!
Dunkin donuts was next
Before heading back to the hotel to leave our packages and bags
Went to this bar for dinner
Haha

Damn funny
We wanted playing cards
So we asked the person
Who gave us paper..
Eddie drew out the card shape with the Ace Shape too
Guess what

The owner tot we were asking for name cards
And gave us name cards. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Initially I to the was giving out the cards for us man
So good
Ten it was like
Eh how come the cards so diff one
Ten we realized it was name card. LOL!

WE WENT FOR MASSAGE NEXT!!!!
It was so damn good!
We were laughing all the way when they massaged our thighs cos it was so ticklish!
In comparison, the oil massage I had felt like I had paid money to be touched
LOL
We at first had 1 hour massage
But we extended it to 2 hours. Hahaha
Shiok shiok shiok!

Off to star movies again. Hahaha
Agent coby banks and sumtink else
And bought like lots of stuff from the lobby to eat
Club sandwich and eggs and all those
There was a pianist at the lobby and we were busy dedicating songs. Hahaha

30 August

Our last day in Thailand. =(
Woke up late
And we were watching “One Fine Day” which was a nice movie
Headed down for breakfast to realize the breakfast menu was closed. Haha

After that we checked out and left our stuff at the hotel
Went to World Trade Center
And Siam Center again
And Platinum Center! Haha

And MASSAGE AGAIN!!!
Whoa!
Damn damn fun and relaxing and shiok!
Too bad snowbell din go for it
Hahaha

Went back to the hotel where the van was waiting to send us to the airport
Ate KFC which was damn ex, it was like 200 baht for a meal
Went to check in and all
When we reached the place, we stood in front of the counter
Behind this 2m tall angmoh
Guess what, everyone who were sitting down on the seats followed!!!
So it was like one long long queue cos we started it!
Hahaah!
Made small talk with the people around us
And the ang moh had 38 kg of over the limit luggage!
His gf had bought so much.
Hahaha

Ride back had some turbulence
And it was bumpy
Din like it.
Played cards all the way too
Grace was so high!
Dreaming that bo was checking her out!
Hahaha!

Touch down!
We were all busy buying liquor
Got a ride back!
And that was the end of the Thailand adventures. Hahaha

I hope there will be a next time!
I will miss these classmates of mine man!

back from thailand

2006-08-31T20:15:00.000+08:00

back from BANGKOK!
fuckload of fun!
update soon!!

Last PLB paper

2006-08-25T18:23:00.000+08:00

First up,

EXAMS are OVER !!!

The Last Exam of my Poly Life has pasased so quickly just like that
the examiner announched the end of the paper at 11am
and with a sigh, my pen was down
PLB was disastrious for me...
god bless me

It seems as though these 5 semesters i have had
in BFS was really fast
i really enjoyed the semesters; of cos minus away the projects and the exams first ! =D
Of course, thats not the end of things yet !

i still have my 6 months attachment to do at Credit Suisse
and the IMF event coming up, which i’m excited about !
this is the event for which i get to take leave off!
and i'll get to go back to school for training.
YAY! hahaha

and i do hope i get chances to go back to school, to visit friends in school!
haha i'll be missing canteen 1 which has been a familar place for me in these 2+ years
and standing in front of c1 stalls with the typical " eh eat wad sia"
hahaha although we have eaten there like ZILLIONS of time!

headed down to clementi for lunch with the classmates...
hey, we should like do a class gathering soon yah? haha
it will be FUN as usual!

i will be off to Bangkok from tomorrow and coming back on wednesdays
will return with a fuck load of pictures! hahaha

So, till thursday then! unless i get to blog in thailand. hahahah
Take care!

PLB TOMORROW!

2006-08-24T17:23:00.000+08:00

PLB IS TOMORROW
AND I KNOW NUTS ABOUT IT!

ahhh!!!

GOD BLESS ME

CFAS paper

2006-08-23T08:56:00.000+08:00

Random pictures time !

Tf01 and Tf02
taken after we went to the chicken rice place to eat. haha

ok u cant really see it very clearly
but that chair is in the shape of a hand
pretty cool eh

stoning

on bo's birthday
i laughed my ass off when i saw the video clip again.
hahaha!

CFAS paper ltr... wish me luck!!!
more pics when i come back from papers. hahaha

moday

2006-08-21T20:19:00.000+08:00

its monday!
friday is coming soon
and do you know what does it mean???

EXAMS OVER!
WHOO
alrite, thats for friday

back to reality junyan.
still got cfas, inv, plb to study

haha today's consultation was good, cleared lots of my doubt
and and and SNOWBELL bought us for excursion again!
like last friday we were supposed to be studying, she bought us to BUGIS
today? to somewhere damn far from sch!

hahaha
so was heading home when bo suggested going for early dinner
went to eat XO fish soup at HV while the contents from the afternoon's meal were still swimming happily in my stomach
the nice XO fish soup wasnt very the nice today
i wonder why

anyway for lunch:
3 of us shared half a chicken while edd had his noodles.
so like yah, the food was in the midst of preparation
SOMEBODY wait. SOME PEOPLE. saw the buy 5 get 1 free chicken wing!
and happily proceeded to : eh buy 5 get 1 free leh! ok ok?
guess whos that! AHAHAHA

and we ended up pushing it to each other cos it was damn salty
LOL!

alrites, gotta go do investment.........
damn sian lah!
wish me luck!

iwishandihopeandipray!

Study

2006-08-20T00:38:00.000+08:00

junyan should really stop playing solitaire showdown on msn
and start studying...

i've been playing an average of at least 30 games per day!
wtf! hahahah

and stop downloading songs

oh and add tv to that list oo

Ahhh!

6 more days!

the chase

2006-08-18T16:26:00.000+08:00

In the darkness, going from avenues to boulevards
reaching out blindly to save my face
unnoticing the cloaked figure in the shadows
down i go, stumbling and falling
despair grabs at the mind
and so it ends
the sad excuse I have,
for my life